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Untangling || another thought

Can I be a 3 year old who verbally say what they want without any filters.

I’ve always loved my filters, those that aren’t to alter, hide or transform, but those I used to adapt.

I’ve always been proud of how I deal. Not so much these past 2 days.

How about…


Remember those?

I’m very tired of the diplomatic statements when someone wants to share an opinion or answer a question.

As long as your respectful, everyone is entitled to their clear cut opinion even if it isn’t the mainstream one.

On dealing with sharing opinions/life online

I always thought one’s space on the internet is like a house with a garden. Social media like twitter, instagram, Facebook which has public feeds are like the front lawn because any passerby can see and even enter to the front door so I always think personal opinions and complete openness isn’t favorable unless you’re ready to have a conversation and welcome backlash.

The silliest example that if you hate Oranges for example and think they’re bad for one’s self, and you own a poster with that statement.

It’s better to have that in a personal space inside the house, the living room or the back lawn (Blogs/personal websites in this case) where you know those who get you or are civilized are visiting rather than any stranger who can throw an egg at the poster or remove it altogether if triggered enough.

You can ask people to “leave if you don’t like it “ when they’re inside the house but you can’t kick people from the public road in front of your house if they verbally attack you.

There are other layers to this analogy in which each form of communication is assigned a room of the house depending on privacy and the level of intimacy and closeness you have with others, but I’ll keep that as food for thought for all of you.

Untangling || On grief

I’ve been doing some cleaning and giving away some of which I own; online, offline and even internally on terms of emotions.

Ever since my rabbit died, I’ve been contemplating my relationships. I believe if you grieve for too long after a loved one had passed, there is a question to be asked there.

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Untangling || a thought

At some point today, I realized I wish my life is a TV series or a book, and boring and uneventful as it is, it would be nice for me to see someone looking at it objectively away from attacking the author, and merely dissect and analyze the inner workings of my behavioral patterns in relationships, because I sure got tired of doing that after failing with my conclusions every half a decade.


In every best friend you have, there are great reasons which connect both of you on a soul level, reasons that make the annoying or problematic parts of yourselves pale in comparison.

These pet peeves, opposing views, unmatched and personality traits are bound to be there in any relationship.

They exist and depending on how close your best friend is to you, the most probable and ideal thing is that they know all about these parts, in you and in themselves.

They’re often addressed in conflict but once they’re out on the table and addressed as things that don’t need to be changed and aren’t reason for conflict anymore, often times they’re just there to be teased about, to come up with in-joke about and to roll eyes at every occurrence in a friendly manner.

You can’t ask perfection from anyone and we’re not out changing friends to meet our needs, so you navigate and compromise.

The problem is when so much changes in between best friends due to personality growth or trials testing both individually and together, that nothing left but those parts you don’t connect with and you end up holding on to that soul by the memories you once had or the dear person who they once were.

It’s a sad state to be in but a lot of people keep hanging in there in a state of hope for the future rationalizing that this is a mere period that’ll pass, which can be the case, or they keep hanging in fear of the unknown alone when taking a step away from that dearest soul.

In hindsight,

after all is that’s said and done,

when the wires aren’t connected anymore,

And all that was overlooked is there in plain sight,

One question is left then,

Is it worth it to stay?


The Author

Diana Alabbadi, widely known by her penname dee Juusan, is a comic artist and writer, who uses different mediums to write stories about the human condition and platonic relationships in modern day settings.

Her main body of work is the Drama/Psychological Manga Grey is… which has been ongoing since 2010 with 8 self-published volumes and two art books, as of 2020.
In 2018 she started collecting all the side stories and comic strips which she sketched next to the manga to enrich the universe, under the title Grey is Clippings in the style of a colored webtoon and has also been ongoing since.
In 2020, Clippings was selected by the Jury of the Japan Media Arts Festival as a notable work in its 23rd round.

Apart from these projects, dee has a number of published and award-winning one-shots which are listed below.


The Message

Building steps to leap beyond the mirage…

dee Juusan’s work focuses on friendship, family and other platonic bonds with their mundane but important interactions as well as the duality of the human soul.

The tone in her work is realistic with its share of heartwarming, funny and realistically bittersweet depictions of life.
Her stories show raw states of the human condition with visual narration and metaphors that makes it easy to relate to, in an attempt to deliver messages of hope and positivity to and audience of teens, older teens and grownups.


I write about tribulations and hardships, to break, understand
then build up towards peace and acceptance..


Published Works

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Awards &


2020 Grey is… Clippings selected by the Jury of the 23rd Japan Media Arts Festival

2017 “Drawing a Smile Out” short movie adaptation which was screened in the Kumamoto Manga Festival.

2015 Joined the Silent Manga Audition Master Class

2014 “Drawing a Smile Out”  won Excellence Award in Silent Manga Audition

2013 “a Pure Love” won Runner-Up award in the first year of Silent Manga Audition

2011 “What once was a dove” selected as finalist in the 5th Morning International Comic Competition

『 كتابة القصص والمانجا الصامتة. أسئلة وأجوبة』

Wide Screen:

00:50 شو الاشي اللي خلاكي تألفي مانجتك الخاصة بغض النظر إنك بتحبي الرسم من زمان؟
01:55 بدك مساعدين يساعدوك بقصتك مستقبلا” يعني مساعدين مانجاكا؟
02:31 بس تخلصي قصتك هل عندك فكرة لقصة أخرى؟
03:08 اقتبست شخصيات قصتك من أشخاص حقيقية ولا من خيالك؟
03:41 انهيت القصة من عندك؟ يعني جهزتي نهاية؟
04:05 اذا رحت للأردن وين رح الاقي مكتبة تبيع كل مجلدات Grey is…?
04:33 ما هو الأسهل بالنسبة لك، المانجا العادية أم الصامتة؟
05:38 أعطينا نصائح لرسم المانجا الصامتة.

كنت عم برسم السكتشز من كتاب

Walk with the grain